Being such a terrible girlfriend.
I kept expecting you to be what I want.
& I didn't do my part.
I had disappoint you & make you felt really depressed.
I'm really sorry.
I know I am not good enough for you. *don't deny it*
You gave me all the freedom I want.
and so, I wouldn't bother your life too.
You tried to message me more often. I know.
But it's my turn to feel lazy to reply at times.
I cant explain why. sorry.
I tried to keep away from guys before this.
I ignore messages, ignore call, didn't even bother to reply in msn.
But you still don't trust me.
Before you start to message me like this frequent.
I start to mix more with other guys.
and now, I just don't know how to stop.
They are already my close friend.
I know you afraid to loose me.
But you had ignore my feeling,
& make my friends get away from me.
I hate it.
I know I had went out often with other guys these days.
You start to be fierce to me. scolding me. ignoring me.
It's my fault. I cant blame you.
I really tried to be a good & obedient girlfriend like how michelle does.
But when I tried, you didn't.
& when you trying hard, I kinda gave up.
The timing is just wrong.
We both had tried. I know.
But things doesn't seems to work out.
& in fact things got worst.
I will still hold on.
hoping things to be different.