Use my photo in her friendster. Create a new name for me. Telling people that she is the one in the picture. Hooks around with guy. *wtf* Okie, worst come to worst, she start telling people crazy stories. She told people her parents = *my parents* both died of cancer. Brother got accident and pass away. All those cursing lies. She said she got heart problem. Need to do operation very often. Luckily she didn't ask for donation huh. One of the guy happen to be my friend. and discover her lies.
Today, she added me in her msn & chat with me like nothing happened. I don't know what should I do. I just act like I don't know anything. she didn't show*my picture* that time. Omgosh. How can she curse my family like that.
went for dentist APPOINTMENT. I had make my appointment last month. I went all the way to OUG. and the dentist FFK me. sad. i got make appointment.!!! wtf. speechless.
p/s : what if waiting brings you nothing in the end?
we shouldn't talk anymore, you said yest. tears explain everything when I'm speechless. well. God bless me. fuckin hard. I'll try. hard.=)
=) =)
Enough of emo. *smile smile *
=) Cher Lee * new name of his * make me laugh like an idiot last night. He is scared of cockroaches.*ngenge* =) you said you like to talk to the ME now. carefree & easy going. lol. good. love is hell, friendship is everlasting =)
Friends are just too sweet!! Have date with chelle & shinz today. Chelle came later cause she is working. Girls outing sure got pictures. all girls love camwhore. =)
Me and shiz walk around before michelle come. we met up with yonghui, guanwei, & angelyne. Angelyne is so gorgeous. *jealous wei* If only I have her height. haha. I know yong hui is hoping for that too. ngenge.
I got a new top. writing. " you're lucky because I just happened to be single" I brought some accessories too. Shinz got a pair of heels from NOSE. pretty nice. But I will fall if I wear such high heels. Sobz.
We went ADD-ON after eating with those guys. camwhored abit. & I saw a cute guy working there. ish. he should come work earlier. lol. Joe & Dylan was nice enough. When they know I broke up with boyfriend. They scared I will be sad & so they spent me STARBUCKS. Iced chocolate. =) loves.
Michelle reach on bout 3.30pm. and we realize all three of us wearing denim mini skirt with a T-shirt. damm ngam!! Walk around and camwhored abit with her. She is so freaking small sized. Shinz & me therefore decided to adopt her as our daughter. =) I got myself a pair of wedges.
random .
...
far.
a nearer one.
about 4.45, we left michelle. she go on dating with her guy after we leave. When we walking out of Pyramid. 2 Blackie. Those african people came to us. They talked to us & asked for my number. and... omfuckingod, I gave my number. which is my big big mistake. OKIE. I'll definately ignore them. trust my word.
lol. I like hanging out with friends. Especially my pompuans. =)
I'm sorry. Being such a terrible girlfriend. I kept expecting you to be what I want. & I didn't do my part. I had disappoint you & make you felt really depressed. I'm really sorry. I know I am not good enough for you. *don't deny it* You gave me all the freedom I want. and so, I wouldn't bother your life too. You tried to message me more often. I know. But it's my turn to feel lazy to reply at times. I cant explain why. sorry. I tried to keep away from guys before this. I ignore messages, ignore call, didn't even bother to reply in msn. But you still don't trust me. Before you start to message me like this frequent. I start to mix more with other guys. and now, I just don't know how to stop. They are already my close friend. I know you afraid to loose me. But you had ignore my feeling, & make my friends get away from me. I hate it. I know I had went out often with other guys these days. You start to be fierce to me. scolding me. ignoring me. It's my fault. I cant blame you. I'm sorry. I really tried to be a good & obedient girlfriend like how michelle does. But when I tried, you didn't. & when you trying hard, I kinda gave up. The timing is just wrong. We both had tried. I know. But things doesn't seems to work out. & in fact things got worst. I will still hold on. hoping things to be different.
Have a talk with michelle on the phone last night. Thanks for caring. Thanks for teaching me how to text him. lmao. If I didn't do like what you said. I guess I will be regretting very soon. so yeah, why don't I have a second try*which I desperately wanting*. I can forgive someone really fast. I don't know why. But please do appreciate me. hmmm. & If really failed again, then that's it la. she said I emo that's why she also emo. so touching. wtf. & she is asking me to learn from her guy. Learn from him not to give up no matter what. hmmm. anyway. Thanks Michelle!! Love you loads. xoxo.
No calls at all as I am waiting like an idiot. To be honest, I desperately want you back. and want to be by my side on that moment. I tried to talk to you. but you still don't get what I mean. How much I hope you will stay up last night to talk to me. Instead of that you went to bed and leave me alone. If I am really that important to you. I guess I at least deserve one night of yours. I am like expecting missed call from you when I wake up in the morning. But nothing.
It's5.30pm. When I stop expecting. you told me you coming over my place as you own me an explanation. hmmm. I guess I don't need that anymore.
I ain't perfect. I have too much expectation huh? i KNOW i'm not even good. But I know I'm unique. =)
Please talk craps with me. I'm trying to get away from serious matter. I need some ''jack ass'' stories. It makes me laugh. lol. Better still. I hope someone do something in "jack ass" in front of me. It would be pretty entertaining. okie. I'm just crapping...
I went to his house. But. due to some reasons. I felt sad. Really sad.
because of the way he treated me, the way he act all the while, his attitude. & what I've heard. I know I ain't that pretty. I ain't that hot. I ain't that caring. I ain't that understanding. ...
I make my decision to quit. & I know my sweetheart chelle is supporting me this time. I got screw by his friend. But, I can swear that I had been serious in this relationship. don't you ever doubt it.
Thanks huns.
Sad face shouldn't be seen.
17-02-08
went to four houses to "pai nian" today. my family friend. wtf. this face is emo.
the 2nd house.
Doggie in the 4th house. I realize i ain't afraid of dogs anymore. Max & Carrie. =)
The little host & his dogs friend. He's the only children in the family. & He is wearing Guess clothings wei! You can imagine how rich they are.
Biggest Angpau of the day. The small boy's dad gave all of us RM50 angapau. The 1st time i receive the new version rm50 =)
hmm. why everytime when I had make my decision. You came back to me and hold me back. Telling me how much I meant to you. This will be the only time I really felt love. & felt important. I know what I'm thinking right now but I just don't know what to do. It's not the first time already. I'm confused.
Since I'm not working anymore. & my mom doesn't likes me to go out so often. Most of time I will stay at home and rot. sleep. sleep. sleep. online. eat. sleep. sleep. sleep. will be my everyday routine. OMGosh right? so friend, free come my house visit me.
As I had said I am damm boring at home. stupid things happened.
.. ... ....
I start to act stupid and tortured myself.
This is the side effect when one have too much free time. =(
16-02-08
I have too much terrible pics yesterday. Is time for some decent, pretty one. lol.
oops. turtle. wrong place.
I got confused sometimes. & I even start to doubt our love again.
I tried to talk to boyfren. But he just don't get me. ...arghh
Joe came over to visit me today. Later on howe thoon & joshua came over too. Thanks God. There are my life saver. Though they didn't stay long. but. good enough.
thinking whether I should go to boyfren house later. He had something on at his house. & he invited lots of people. *which is strangers to me* I know i would be boring. sobz. It's already 5.15pm now.
12/02/08 went valentines shopping with michlee. it's been awhile since we last walk and hold hands walking together. I love michelle. but this time. there's 2 guys included in our outing. I'm looking forward for a 2 girls date. maybe 3. plus shin yee!! =)
she looking grest in this dress. but due to some reasons. she didn't get it.
I went to shop for myself too. spending my previous month salary. spent more than 700 in a single day.
mcky accesorries. walt disney princess top. pink pounch. pink guess wallet. sasa mascara.
beggie. denim mini skirt. I want to know how sweet a kiss can be.
and. something for boyfriend. =)
14/02/08 It's Valentines.
Getting ready.
Boyfriens planned to go tony romas. But since it's fully packed. We went to a restaurant name Itallianese. I like the environment.
boyfriend brought me this top & the mini. Guys make great accessories. & you would be my best accesorries. =0
Together with a card and a necklace.
well. I didn't really enjoy though. maybe cause the time is too short. hmm. No idea. but, boyfriend. I don't expect much too. =) I love you lots. xoxo.
05-02-08 Woke up early morning. had breakfast with family @ Mcd.
Then, we went back to mom's hometown @ johor. My cute cousin brother from taiwan felt bored. and so, he & my brother when to nearby school to play baskeyball. and. They ended up in the police station. Teachers in that school call up police. They said my brother & cousin were rude to them. *wtf* my cousin can't speak malay. he can only speak a lil bit from english. & my brother doesn't talk to malays. How can them be rude. My relatives think that the teacher is simply making up story. plus, the police are just too free.
Evening. my brother & cousin found another basketball court. a public one. They join the others to play.
Sister and I were too bored waiting for them. we CAMWHORED!
candid.
I love this T. <3>
random.
06-02-08 when basketball court again. while waiting. I camwhored AGAIN.
Today my uncle & dad joined them.
wohooo. new year eve! there's fire crackers. & fire works.
fire works there is damm nice. it's just my camera sux. Have a look at those videos. =)
The end of new year eve celebration.
07-02-08 first of new year. My granny has 14 children. So you can actually imagine how crowded the house is.
My NEWPHEW! cute right? xoxo.
candid =0
My pretty cousin!
the cute one.
My cousin's doggy. her name is PEPPER. I love her!
kE HUI! Look. I'm carrying a DOG! i feel proud!
NIECES from china. They got oinkish cheeks, big eyes, & the bei jing slang. omg. they are just one of those typical cute china doll.
Pepper in cheong sam =)
08-02-08 2nd day.
I played BASKETBALL. me, my cousin sister and my sister formed a team. We beat the guys. Because we had our very own unique rule. We can walk with ball, slap, step, hit the guys when playing. & The guys are not allowed to block us when we shoot. and not even jumping. Lol. that's why we won =) *still feel proud though*
I look so crappy here. anyway. my another pretty cousin.
shadow of mine & sister.
09-02-08 I'm wearing cheong sam.
must camwhored!
weird pose. =s
cousin in cheong sam too.
I wore cheong sam and walk around the Batu Pahat mall. lol. i felt abit weird.
went wong kok for lunch.
ocean tender.
brought a hello kitty beg. pinkish one. pretty.
flipping through january seventeen. & I saw this T. nice & cheap. I want to have one.
10-02-08 going back home. terrible traffic jam!! omg. we left on 3.30. reached home on 8.00 pm.
and look at this. damm it. the stupid smelly piblic toilet also had to queue for this long. wtf.
11-02-08. they went back to taiwan today early morning. I miss them. after fetching them to airport. I followed jj my family to seremban. after that. went yumcha with teng han & jian hong. Tiring yet boring day. aiks.
will be leaving to seremban again soon =)
p/s: boyfriend. I know u miss me. =) hee. I miss you too!! lots of love.
yours truly
Tzia Tzia a.k.a Cherlin.
UTAR PJ
Turns eighteen on this 4th of July.
An attest chocoloate indulger.
& a typical pink lover.
A certified romanticism, exceptionally dreamy and bubbly
Idolize Leah Dizon with an utmost hawt body, and Jaychou's fabulous songs.
